...i lack the vocabulary accurately describe what i just suddenly experienced ~an hour ago by this point, or why - but i will try. it's probably gonna be pretty incoherent though.
some days i feel really disconnected from myself, like i'm "on autopilot", or sleepwalking - just watching myself carry out my daily life. but this was different. it was like... suddenly having different parts of me pulled in different directions - "pulled", metaphorically, but "parts" in a more literal sense. a very mixed set of sensations, but not entirely discordant.
the whole... "thing"? only lasted for like maybe 15, 20 mins? and i can't remember, but i don't think this is the first time something like that has happened. but that was weird. where'd it come from, and what triggered it?
(i mean i AM tired as fuck so maybe my mind's just playing tricks with me, but. i dunno, i just feel like there might be more to it)