agh i'm so sore all over... not from work this time, but from my numerous... "diversions" as of late. i really gotta tone it down with those >.>
idk if i want to talk about this stuff explicitly (publicly) because it's kind of. out there. i think. like yeah it's my account and all, but i (still!) have this fear of people finding me "disturbing". it sucks!!
it's really not even that "bad", just unconventional. maybe it's just that, despite spending hours at a time at it, idk if i'm super into it... in a way like, "don't want people thinking i'm that way", y'know? i'm still just experimenting, trying shit out and seeing how it feels, what works, what i like and don't like.
(again i technically don't have any objections to talking about this stuff; i'm just not confident enough to put it on full blast here. so. hmu in the comments or something if you're curious)