noticed yesterday that i was kinda starting to get a little "weird" around mom as the hours went on. rambling. unusual openness. nonchalant (even a bit disrespectful?) approach to "sensitive" topics (dad's personal struggles and... oddities).
can't say for sure, but i think that's happened in the past as well. maybe not quite to this extent though. could well be just my meds starting to wear off. or maybe touching on autism made me more attentive of it. maybe i was just tired. maybe it's just her that's having such an effect on me - just even more so (or more noticeably) now that i've been out of there for a couple of years? idk.