on one hand, i'm just so sick of being treated as male and think a feminine identity would suit me so much better... and i feel that unless i am visibly "non-male", people WILL just assume/see me as one. in other words, i "should" transition to being female.
...but on the other hand, i'd honestly much rather just be a creature of some sort. so i don't think "female" really suits me either.
idk maybe i'd have a stronger desire to present myself in general if i had more/closer connections with people i'd want to present to in the first place... i think that, for most of the past few years, i've just felt varying levels of not wanting to be seen; instead wanting to just hide myself and to be left alone :(
