i gotta say though, now that i've got my windows reactivated, bought some nice clothes, changed my tyres, switched phone plans etc. it feels like i'm going somewhere with my life again. you'd think i'd feel good about that, but... i kinda don't. i'm more just relieved to get that stuff out of the way.
i'm slow to change my ways. most of the time i just do the same old stuff... because that's all i ever have the spoons for. everything else is a bother. it's like... even if it's something i want to do, i just don't have the energy to feel good about doing it...
(it gets a bit wordy and venty from here on (transition & life stuff); didn't mean to make it so but it kinda just turned out that way)
