Since the closing of Cohost was announced, I've been struggling with various things. Seeing everyone else's final posts, I kept meaning to try and post something, but real life things always seemed to get in the way. Constantly feeling ill, struggling with computer issues, something always seemed to come up that left me in a poor enough headspace I didn't feel up to it.
Given that it was supposedly closing down on October 1st, I figured I at least had this weekend to try and get something written up... I was originally going to do it tomorrow, but seeing various people making their final posts, I'm wondering if the closing is coming sooner than I thought.
So in any case, I felt I should at least put some words together, although I'm not sure how many people will see it.
I don't really feel I took full enough advantage of cohost. I guess I was just timid, and over the years I've gotten reluctant enough to share much of what I do. I am glad I posted all of the Minecraft builds -- it's the most accurate tracking of my work on Neos City than anywhere else. I did post a little writing and such, and it was amusing to see my post about the living genie bottle idea appear to take off (at least, based on the number of notifications I got about it...).
Still, getting to meet people like Reba and Razzi, seeing friends like Phorm really bloom in the environment of cohost... it does make me wish I had done a bit more.
Still, if nothing else... cohost was definitely a comfortable space. I still do dip my toes into Twitter a bit, but it still feels so... polluted, despite having heavily curated it. But here I could always count on feeling comfortable and relaxed.
I definitely enjoyed seeing all of the content people shared. So many amazing and incredible stories and ideas, worlds people created. If anything else, I do feel bitter that such a great environment for nurturing and encouraging people is going to disappear, and it does leave me just that much more bitter at the world as a whole.
Still... I don't want my last thoughts on Cohost to be bitter ones. It has been too good of a place for that. I can only hope that enough people will carry on the flame and it'll nurture more comfortable spaces. In the meantime, I will jus thave to do what I can to stay in contact with those I've met, and try to stay in better contact with those I've known for a while. Because it's been a reminder of just how you are all such wonderful and interesting people that make my life brighter.
Thank you all for being here~
