sorry i didn't really stick to that "i'll reply to everything in my inbox before it's too late" promise in my last post.
i mean, i guess since this is going to be my literally actual last post, i should probably specify i mean my previous post
for as long as i've lived there's been this weird incompatibility in my brain that makes it so god damn impossible to respond to almost any correspondence. call it being an introvert, neurodivergent or whatever else seems to fit, but it's a problem i've struggled to overcome for decades. i can watch someone reach out to me on discord day after day but still somehow feel this gut-wrenchingly wrong feeling when i so much as consider saying hello back, like i'm about to commit some kind of heinous crime, and nothing over the course of my life has made it any easier. but i do want to get back to you all. if nothing else, as i said on my previous post, i'll make a section on my website that functions similarly enough to an ask box where i can try to make up for lost time. i can't promise this'll happen with any kind of promptness, not that i've ever been able to promise that before, but fuck! i want to engage with you guys! i want out of this!!
maybe things'll be different in a place that i control. a place i feel truly at home in. a space dug out just for me and the people that want to go out of their way to know me. i don't know
i'm still going to miss the fuck out of cohost, though
find me at https://timigi.com/MouthMoth/ - i'll remove the stupid fake-out button soon enough, as soon as i can get the tiniest bit of energy back into my soul. til then, look for the invisible text underneath the button.
losing cohost is hitting me harder than i thought it would and the fact it's happening during a very stressful time in my life is not helping matters much. but i'll be ok. i survive, it's what i do. and i know yall will survive too <3
