So the real answer to this question is "Go to therapy", but that's fiscally impossible right now.
I'm in a state where I'm very disillusioned with and dissociating from life, right down to struggling with creative pursuits, to doing normal adult bullshit. I've got people counting on me - heck, I'm counting on me - to pull it together, and I'm out of ideas.
Anyone have any books or other media that could help, or at least be a little boost? Not even sure what to ask for, but I'm sure other people have been in similar positions.
I'm looking for an umbrella in a hurricane, but it might be enough to get me a few steps further.