I've been pondering the last few weeks on why I'm self-sabotaging myself into the dirt, and I think a big reason is no one can take anything away from me if I don't have anything.
No one can take my work if I don't do it, no one can toss my work in the garbage if there's nothing to toss, no one can do anything to me if I don't give them access.
It's definitely not a healthy way to live. This at least gives me another idea for how to approach the rut I'm stuck in. The problem is convincing myself that creating and doing are worthwhile in many ways, even though there are people out there who will always take advantage of me.
