so i guess i should talk about the real life stuff that's been happening since it's been affecting my online activity and my art and my gaming
so back in february i got a root canal and a crown for a tooth that got cracked when i received a filling a few months prior. the procedure gave me a jaw injury and also even after a bunch of adjustments the crown still hurts (neither of these things seem to be going away and it's been weeks so i guess this is my life now). i was on pain killers for a few weeks and that's why i couldn't draw much during that time (it made my hands super shakey and my brain all fuzzy).
then i started to have nightly pain issues with my legs. i don't know what's going on with that yet. i got an ultrasound to check for blood clots but it came up empty. so i guess next is to check for nerve damage? that seems to be the likely culprit right now. i can't get any pain killers for this issue since i was on them so long for the dental work, so i have to make due with way-too-high doses of several over the counter medicines that also make me all shakey and fuzzy anyway oops.
both those issues are why i haven't been drawing and also haven't been playing touhou as regularly anymore
i've also been pretty depressed lately over my voice because i'm about to be put in a situation where people are going to be hearing me speak. i've hated my voice for such a long time because it's realllly deep. like, it doesn't match my tiny appearance at all and i even sound straight-up like a boy sometimes. and it's gotten worse over the years because i avoid speaking as much as possible.
i really want to fix it! i know there's voice training stuff out there for trans women (i am cis, btw) and i've tried it but... i don't really get it? (if someone could help me with that that would be great TTuTT) i've also been trying to get my confidence up to speak more so my voice isn't so horribly unused.
that's the gist of what's been going on rn. i should have talked about it sooner. i have a hard time talking about this stuff because i have a lot of anxiety about opening up and being vulnerable. so yeah. i can post my old art for a while more but expect slower touhou updates for the time being.
