There's a frankly shocking amount of times where I'll read something talking about race, and quietly think in the back of my head "ah yeah, this applies/doesnt apply to me, given im white"
Then 2 minutes pass and I think "wait, im literally not."
(I think a part of me has, unfortunately, learned to think of whiteness as a sort of 'default', and given my lack of any strong connection to either American or Chinese culture, I just sorta forget about it.)