Space Station 13 has always seemed like a neat game - but I've also been told it's super intimidating to get into? How is it, in people's experience?

I like to draw and code and sometimes do other things.
Space Station 13 has always seemed like a neat game - but I've also been told it's super intimidating to get into? How is it, in people's experience?
I was digging through some old school documents and found an old poem I wrote. I felt like it was maybe a bit clunky, though, so I decided to 'remaster' it. Here it is now, for your reading pleasure.
I'm a failure
I've never really believed
The work will pay off, in the end
It's hard, but
Why continue to push through?
Why struggle and fight
Against my own limitations
Give up
I feel silly for believing that I'll
Change others lives for the better
Maybe, maybe, I'll
Stop trying
I may never
Be rid of this crushing feeling
Try and push past it
And yet it comes back again
Any hope in myself, my future, I've abandoned
If you feel the same, try reading this in reverse
Modern retro gaming hardware always kinda amused me. Like, here's a brand new $400 machine so you can finally live the dream of playing super Mario world for the SNES again.
I have nothing against any of my family - im very fortunate to have immediate relatives who aren't like, abusive or shitty, and while they can get on my nerves, I trust they're all trying to be the best they can and have good intentions.
At the same time, coming home for the holiday feels like rewatching an episode of a show for the 30th time. It just feels repetitive.