Sheri

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it's interesting to own objects you specifically only use when depressed. i have a collection of boyslove manga pictured here. i read them as soon as i buy them, often as soon as they're released, and then only ever touch them again when i'm in a depressive funk and binge all of them

some of these books are really good: candy color paradox explores workplace relationships in a surprisingly healthy way, secret XXX and therapy games talk a lot about queer culture's relationship with modern society. then there are some less good ones like that yakuza fourth generation one and whatever the FUCK is going on in ten count

but all of them have something in common now. i only take out these books and read them when i'm overwhelmed, stressed, probably high, and above all: depressed.

every time i glance to this part of my office and see these books, i think about if i feel like reading one. chances are if i need some slice of life romance and gay porn in my life, it's because my life has been difficult lately.

but i don't hold any resentment to these books as i do to my depressive spells. i don't want to burn or throw these books away because of their association with negative feelings. i thank them for being there, transitional in their perception. the moment i realize i would very much like to reread the one where a boy can turn into a crow is when i understand that i am depressed. it's the beginning of the period of destressing, relaxing, and moving on. it's the first sign that better things are to come.

so despite being my depression binge, i am thankful for these depression things. their purpose isn't to sulk with, but to give me a healthier outlet than other darker depression things. then depression drugs or depression alcohol, depression self-harm or depression suicidal ideation.

having healthy depression items in your life can redirect the need to feel sudden and perhaps even sinful improvement of your immediate state. so i'm thankful for my depression smut books. i'm thankful for my depression medicinal weed. i'm thankful for my depression playlist of the same 12 songs i'll play on loop until i finally feel myself again.

keep some healthy depression items around you. like a charm of low level demonic energy designed to keep higher level demons at bay. don't blame the charm for doings its job. don't blame your depression objects, just appreciate them as they are


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