It's...
I try very hard not to forget that I am wanted
It is easy though, to lose sight of it
Everything seems- just-
So many people are back to some semblance of normal?
I can't... just- it seems very bleak on so many fronts for me
So it's very easy, to lose sight of the fact that I have value
It's me feeling insane for still social distancing
Even with my chronic illness and compromised immune system
It's the rent going up and my wages shan't
It's the fact that the cost of living keeps rising
It's the fact that the world is on the brink of nuclear war (again oh God)
It's Climate Change
It's the fact that I'll likely never be able to retire
That I'll never get to live with those I love desperately
It's so very much that constantly builds up and...
I just put on a brave face and keep swinging every day
It feels it's never appreciated
How hard I fight
How long I fight, how long I've been fighting
How desperately part of me just wants to stop, and curl up
How close I am to the brink
It's just been
a lot.
