i always go super hard on christmas, like, i remind my family to make christmas wish lists, i buy things here and there throughout the entire year then towards nov/dec fill in the gaps, i got my youngest brother's three partners two presents each, etc. i do it because i love shopping, and wrapping gifts, and showing my appreciation for people this way!
i always say that i do it bc i selflessly want to, and i won't be upset if i don't receive the same level of gifts, and i don't expect to get nearly as much as i gave. and that's mostly true!!
but i'm starting to wish at least one person put a comparable amount of effort into gifts for me...
i should probably stop going so hard if it's starting to disappoint me. but i don't want to stop, bc it's so so much fun!!!! i got myself some things while i was christmas shopping today, at least, so hopefully that'll help ward off the disappointment 😤