i always go super hard on christmas, like, i remind my family to make christmas wish lists, i buy things here and there throughout the entire year then towards nov/dec fill in the gaps, i got my youngest brother's three partners two presents each, etc. i do it because i love shopping, and wrapping gifts, and showing my appreciation for people this way!
i always say that i do it bc i selflessly want to, and i won't be upset if i don't receive the same level of gifts, and i don't expect to get nearly as much as i gave. and that's mostly true!!
but i'm starting to wish at least one person put a comparable amount of effort into gifts for me...
i should probably stop going so hard if it's starting to disappoint me. but i don't want to stop, bc it's so so much fun!!!! i got myself some things while i was christmas shopping today, at least, so hopefully that'll help ward off the disappointment 😤
Christmas was good!!!
I got small things that were very thoughtful and fit my taste to a tee from one of my brothers and one of my partners, a solid useful thing from my parents, and a couple treats from the family I babysit for. I also got myself a good practical present from Santa, and my other partner was like wow you got me such amazing things I'm definitely getting you something asap. So I'm happy that I didn't get Only cute trinkets or Only practical stuff, and turns out I really don't mind that I didn't get as Many things because I did feel 100% appreciated and loved!!
People loved the presents I got them! In particular, Ari lost her mind that she got THE gabby's dollhouse, and the cool matchy-but-different sweaters I got my partners fit perfectly, and everyone enjoyed the stocking stuffers. And my family got awesome stuff for my partners and kid too! I think that really helped as well, it is such a wonderful gift to me that my family of origin are such big fans of my family of creation and treat them like just as much of family as I am. I LOVE all of my family and they all love me!!!