i genuinely wish i could stay awake during literally any of my free time
like before we even get to the question of whether executive function will allow me to do a thing i enjoy, all i can do anymore after i get home is, basically, fall asleep somewhere in the apartment and wake up four hours later, still tired, and also it's after midnight and all my free time has disappeared into the void
i haven't even been able to play a game at all in over a week (and i have such an enormous backlog of things i want to try ...)
