i wish there existed a job where i could just pick some part of a system that looked interesting (or irritating in just the right way) and just inprove it, and pick up all sorts of weird little skills along the way. not like, in an asshole "move fast and break things" way but in like a "maintenance" way
i wish i had the energy to do things i enjoy, like, i love so many video games - not all of them of course, i still have genres and styles i like and don't like, but still, my backlog might as well be infinitely long. and despite all that, i've basicslly been off work for four days now and have not spent one minute of it doing things i want to do (or even things i need to do)
