i can't go to hell - i'm all out of vacation days. i watch space rocks and yell at computers for my day job. probably too old for any of this

 

i think i might be burned out on internet social. it's hard to keep doing it. it's hard to even maintain the amount of attention i'm already giving it

 

i am the cause of most of my own problems

 

furthermore, capitalism must be destroyed

 

birdsona: ?????

 

🌎 Ontario, Canada


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i dont even follow that many people and i still haven't made it much past noon yesterday, lol, i've still barely got to the "oh tumblr's doing an exodus" part and meanwhile all my discords are unread and i haven't actually done anything for myself all night

im not cut out for this social media shit, my brain does not work like this

i don't even follow that many people

Edit: i just wanted to be extra clear that im not bitter at all about the new people or anything, i hope you find a cool home here or whichever webbed site you end up landing on - i just have a fraught relationship with social media


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in reply to @SomeEgrets's post:

yeah i had like 800 unread messages when i got back from Outside as it happened between when i was napping and when i went out for errands, it was a very lively day by cohost standards

i have a hard time declaring feed bankruptcy and just picking up and present day, present time (hahahahahaha) because like

at this point these systems basically are my window into the cultures i've chosen to participate in, right? don't get along with most people from work outside of work (we wouldn't agree on much, would actively disagree on a lot) and so on

things like discord or whatever im fine to let just flow past me, they're in-the-moment, ephemeral

if someone makes a post here (or any of the other "stickier" places to post), it could be anything from a shitpost to finding out about something meaningful to the community like Sy Sable, to "hey i got diagnosed with cancer"

imagine missing that someone you knew for ten or more years got cancer because of too much scrollback?

i've always had this kind of weird relationship with social media though, it's never been quite ephemeral to let the firehose form a stream that flows gently past like discord or IRC, but not quite permanent(?) or manageable enough to feel like i can rely on it to keep up with important things, or even the little daily things that aren't important because of scale, but because of proximity?

yeah anyway it's 5am and this is a problem i've had and not solved for over a decade, it doesnt need more words

incidentally this is always why i get in such a state about some people, like, "your posts are always on such interesting topics and i love them but i absolutely cannot follow you because you post 20x more per day than most of everyone else on my TL and it drowns them out in a way i can't just read around"

Edit: oops fuck that was more words, fuck!

i usually leave a tab set to my dash here to accumulate the unread posts, and then when i'm back from a break i click the "# unread posts" banner, scroll to the bottom, and work my way up, i'm with you there

i try not to fuss about it if i miss out on something because obsessing over what i miss has led me to very destructive and unhealtthy behavior on previous websites, like facebook whicch i had to quit in 2013, and even ffurafffinity not much later. i spent so much time zeroing out my unreads and it was consuming me in a bad way.

but forcing yourself out of those states is difficult so i get you

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