Part of the whole Desiring to be a machine thing is just so that I can figure out what problems are with my body. Something, and I have no idea what, has lit a bunch of the tendons, joints and muscles in me on fire today, and I have no idea why. Is it that however I injured myself a week and a half ago in a near-miss on the road is still manifesting? Is it something related to diabetes? Did I somehow sleep in the perfectly wrong position last night? Is it something else going on? I don't know, and if it's not this bad tomorrow, is going to a doctor going to actually reveal anything, or just be a dead end that costs me $100?
At least if my body was synthetic, I could take Parts out, run diagnostics, swap things and inspect for damage, or order new parts if something's failing. I am so tired of hurting or getting sick and maybe 1 times in 10 finding an answer. I had a good run of about 5 months without major health issues but that accident-not-accident might have really fucked things up
