Part of the reason I am asking if I save work for myself to do on Saturday, and wanting to create an excuse to work on Saturday, is that I want to try and earn as much money as possible from my job. Something like 5 years ago or more, I was thinking about getting a second job just so I can support my friend Johanna Roberts. I ultimately settled on working my regular, but try to work as much overtime as I can. I don't drive and take the bus. It would be hell trying to do the logistics of commuting between two different jobs.
Hence why in the past, I just work seven days a week. Did I need to come in Sundays? Yes... in that I didn't do my job on Friday and Saturday. But I did get in trouble for that for my "Excessive Hours."
Coming in on July 4th was a big one.
So since then, I try to get as much overtime as I can get away with. The only I stream on Sundays is because it is my only day off, most of the times. And I can earn some money on Sundays from streaming. Pennies though. Better than earning no money, I guess. I hate thinking in a Capitalist way.
"But Jonathan, you should take time for yourself and relax. Take Saturday off. You work too much." Okay, sure. Maybe I should be grateful to be able to take a Saturday off every now and again. But if I don't work on Saturday, I receive between $175 to $240 less money in take home pay for that week. I am now financially supporting like 5 disabled friends now. I do enjoy streaming on Twitch and YouTube. It is fun. But I can't earn $175 to $240 a day from just streaming. And I pretty much have to be in the top 1% of streamers to make that much.
And whenever I don't work as much overtime as I can, earning as much as I can, I feel guilty. I could have helped out my friends more, but I decided I wanted to "relax." I even sometimes feel guilty for spending money on myself for like Fortnite skins. Especially with my unhealthy toxic relationship with that game that I love, when I don't suck, and hate myself for sucking.
True, I could share the links to my friends' paypals, cashapps, gofundmes, and such. But from mine and my friends' experiences, those things don't get hits, or traction. Or even if a lot of folks sees those posts, almost all the people that want to help, don't have the means to help. We are all poor. So, I took it upon myself to try and support my friends as much as I can. Even if it means less fun for me.
And I know it would be too much for me to ask others to work as much overtime as possible, and to charge up their credit cards like I do. But I also just see no way out and no permanent solution to my friends poverty.
And I am never going to have faith that the Democrats will do a damn thing about my friends' poverty. The Dems are still Capitalists. And Capitalism requires poverty to function. So the Democrats, and anyone who is pro-Capitalism is also in turn pro-poverty, whether they know it or not.
Sure, voting for Kamala Harris is better than voting for a Fascist. But I don't see anything fundamentally changing for my friends in the next decade. Or for myself, really.
Decided to go on another rant. Been awhile since I have done this type of rant before.