Political Agitator

Working on Saturdays, as usual. But not working Sundays. So I will there for Social Justice Alchemy. Which will be our Patron show. And will stream #fortnite on Twitch afterwards, or try to. Where if I am able to play the game, you will see me yell and scream at myself for my frustration of sucking at the game.

I spend more time relaxing than intended. But I am finally streaming. Going to play some #Fortnite. I suck. So I will do quests and challenges and try to complete the milestones before the end of the season. I am also fundraising for my comrades in need.
(!13+) Anarcho-Fork Knifism | Fortnite grinding | !fundraising for !comrades | !retweet | !AMA
https://www.twitch.tv/somerandomg33k

What do you do with your anger? I mean, what do when you are so angry you want to punch something? But you know that you shouldn't punch something because you would put a hole through your wall. Or the wall of this building is concrete and will damage your hand. Or you are at work. And let's also assume you can't change anything about the thing that makes you angry. Because I have experienced this can of anger when I miss the bus by one minute and it is another hour for the next bus. Especially when I thought I was going to make it in time.

I wanted to make that stipulation there because I know that when I say that I also experience this anger when I play Fortnite or other video games, then my friends, who I know mean well, will say, "If Fortnite is making you so angry, then maybe you should stop playing it for a while." But it isn't just Fortnite, it is in other video games too. I am a rage gamer. I have screamed "AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG" out of frustration when I died playing Borderlands 2, Skyrim, and even Stardew Valley. When something I didn't expect to happen happens, I get frustrated and yelled and scream. I also have this tendency to need to bite into something. You can see this in my VODs on my Twitch Channel. I have teeth marks on my wallet. I have destroyed three of my hats.

I can't stop playing all video games. And I am not going to stop playing Fork Knife. Not after putting $2000 into that game in the past year. I want to play in order to grind and in order to git gud. I can't git gub with playing somewhat.

Others said, "Drink a glass of water." What if when I pick up the glass, I have to resist throwing it across the room? And how does drinking the water change the thing that is making me angry? Hence why I something hates asking this question because I am sure I will hate the answers folks will give, even though they mean well.

One viewer suggests I grab a carrot to eat because that helps them. Again, how does that change the thing that is making me angry? And with the carrot, I will just tear into it like those three hats I've destroyed. I guess it is an angry stim me wanting to bite into something and tear and rip it to shreds. Happens even when I play the casual game mode of Team Rumble of Fortnite. I still care about dying there even though it has respawned.

I guess I will just always be angry. And Fork Knife will always get me angry, and there is nothing I can do about it. Especially since I want to be good at the game.

SJA is done. Doing my Sunday stream. I really haven't done a lot Fortnite grinding during the week. So I will do that on stream. Watch suck at Fortnite and only win if there are only bots in the endgame. And also still raising funds for my friends.
(!13+) An Anarho-Syndicalist doing some Fortnite grinding, and maybe later Galaxy skin Cup | !fundraising for !comrades | !retweet | !AMA
https://www.twitch.tv/somerandomg33k