Late 20s tgirl. Elf ear pervert. Some say hemipenis girl. Writing mostly original F/F. Stories will frequently be horny so if you're under 18 you're getting blocked.



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"Let's play a game," Zif says, in a calm and gentle way, both tone and words that February has learned to knee-jerk fear.

The truck is rattling down a country track, just across the state line. Zif is watching the road, but with the casual air of someone familiar with it; February is huddled in the passenger seat in coiled dread, even before this. Trips out are more unpredictable than evenings in.

"What game?" February says, looking at her knees.

"Client gets in touch, says they need something exfiltrated. Rush job; today." The truck rounds a bend, jolts over a pothole, and emerges from the trees into open ground. It looks like a building site; or at least, a site that got as far as having materials piled here, and then — planning hiccups. Bankruptcy. Who knows? No more work, anyway, just weeds slowly eating piles of gravel and sand, stacked lengths of concrete culvert pipe, sheafs of rusting rebar. Listing portajohns, and way over on the far edge of the site, almost to where the trees resume, the cracked and peeling bulk of a modular cabin, presumably intended as the site office.

A training game, then, not sex. Probably. Possibly both; but Zif's been calmly, evisceratingly clear that she expects February, among other things, to get competent enough to be useful at the criminal trade that fucked her life up.

Can't beat an asset that does it for free, she'd drawled condescendingly, during a very long evening of explaining February's new status quo to her, chained in the raw concrete basement of Zif's farmhouse, with shears for February's clothes and a freezing cold hosepipe and a scrubbing brush made for saucepans and shampoo for dogs.

(Zif doesn't have a dog.)

Possibly both, but nonetheless, deadly seriously a professional training exercise.

"What's the target?" February manages to say it evenly, and Zif parks up and shows her a photo on her phone; a metal case around the size of a cashbox, alphanumeric code stencilled on the side.

"Obviously," Zif says, "it's in the cabin." She smiles, meanly. "Also obviously, the cabin has a camera, and if you get seen on that, you lose the game. You won't know that, until afterwards. Simulates getting picked up by the police for sloppy execution."

February looks at the site, the cabin, Zif. Gets out when she's told. Waits while Zif strolls around, re-opens the passenger door, and opens the glovebox.

"Corporate site," she says. "Corporate onsite security. Ever been shot with a paintball gun?"

February shakes her head.

"Simulates being shot," Zif says, hefting the weapon.


February has simulated being shot by corporate security eleven times, and each time Zif stands over her and says, "From the top." The last couple of times, she's handed February a tissue and waited for her to stop crying.

By now, it's dark.

(February cries again when Zif's glovebox turns out to also contain a set of night vision goggles. "Correctly equipped corporate security," Zif says, but her smile says I like it when you cry.)

She's spotted where the camera's mounted on the cabin, but has to guess the field of view, and be conservative. Losing that way, too, is going to hurt; she doesn't know how Zif will make it hurt but she knows she will. She's quiet. She pays attention to sightlines. When in doubt, she freezes where she's sure it's safe, monitors the patrol routines Zif's simulating, flits through the breaks in it. Circles the site. Breaks into the cabin — quietly, quietly — through a back window. Stays low and quiet while she seaches the cabin's shelves and cupboards, heart hammering — how many plausibly-sized but wrong boxes can one place contain? — until she finds it, checks the number on the side, quietly thanks the already-ingrained impulse to memorise that as important when Zif just casually flashed the picture.

Freezes, heart doing something ugly in her chest, when sudden bootsteps mount the cabin steps and the key rattles in the lock.

It's Zif, she thinks wildly, and that's — a better and a worse thought than actually being caught breaking in by someone else. And it's part of the game—

She moves, quiet and low; waits for the opening door and the body stepping through it, lunges. They go down in a welter of limbs, February gritting her teeth against making any sound, desperately wrestling; and finds herself on top, paintball gun in her hands, pointed down at Zif's chest.

It feels nothing like triumph; terror, mostly, but she keeps it pointed dead steady, right up to the point Zif jams a shock prod in her ribs and lights her up.


Zif dumps her, limp and sobbing and handcuffed, into the back of the truck. Climbs in, and starts backing up to turn them, to head back up the long, bumpy track to the highway.

"That wasn't bad, until you couldn't shoot me," she says coolly. "What's the statutory limit on corporate security holding you before they hand you to police to be charged, February?"

February tries to stop crying. "Thirty-six hours," she sniffles.

"That's right," Zif says. "I want you to remember that everything I do to you in the next thirty-six hours is documented in corporate arrest records, February. All of it."

(A deadly serious professional training exercise. But nonetheless, in the end: both.)

"You'll thank me, when you're not getting caught for real," Zif says, and glances over her shoulder at February's tearstained face. Grins. "...Plus any other time I tell you to, of course."

"I avoided the camera, though?" February says wretchedly, begging for that much, for some faint praise.

"You'll find out in thirty-six hours," Zif says.


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in reply to @caffeinatedOtter's post:

I hate that I feel distracted rn, I've got a train to catch for a CT scan I won't get enough sleep beforehand for, that I don't have the emotional calm to sink utterly into this, and I'm stuck with just my phone in bed to write this but god it's close and god I have to write at least something.

I am always so fucking stunned by your creativity, that take such incredible advantage of how short stories are just flashes. Like "start late as possible, cut early as possible" for scenes applied at stunning scale. Anything really did mean further than I thought.

I at least thought of chaining in the basement lol.

At least my cliff notes for part 2:

  • that line of "only feel loved when made to feel disgusting." a similar phrase, "why did they want my body when I didn't?" like I've been in the position of needing to dictate my behaviour for survival, fuck that feeling is intimate. no matter how awful a woman would always feel better.

  • even with her situation softened a bit in the last part, there's still that sense of precarity that overwhelms. that desire to have it all taken away, in full knowledge of sincerely you'll regret it, is so deeply... inviting.

  • like my brain wants to be February, it's very messed up. and I have this distant, minute, bittersweet epilogue idea, but right now I don't want her to be okay. I so, so dearly just want to see her abused. how do i explain that when I'm ordinarily so comfort-orientated (@whumpshaped called me out for that lol on a post, weird naming scheme but horrific little stories my freak brain loves)? even the navy rose idea is sweet in this really fucking awful way.

Is it because my brain registers her position as 'okay?' like I feel this intense desire to simulate a post-trauma comfort I never got, and there's something deeply messy that comes with seeing a person who'll do both.

God and speaking of both. Everything Zif is doing is so fucking nasty, utterly dehumanising, and these cruel little touches like the tissues. I adore getting to see a girl who is constantly wailing. And I'm sure there's another camera we havent seen inside. I wonder about what clothes Zif is dressing February in, if her first outfit was cut up. Maybe Zif grabbed her stuff and is just progressively tearing it all to shreds to show Februarys old life slipping away from her.

So, strictly strictly strictly if you haven't another part soon in the works, could I try my hand at writing some of those 36 hours? Up until just before what's on those cameras is said. I have some nasty little flashbacks, a messed up corpo interrogation sim, plotting about fake IDs, bit of improv collaring, and primarily a dirty fucking idea for a sex scene (which I'm not sure I've ever seen you do?) that can maybe explore some of the uglier desires in February.

I would want to run like, a draft or redraft by you, just here or in a DM somewhere to check it's okay to post. I feel kinda bad, like I think with Roxanne and Sex Pollen I feel it cos theyre direct continuations and that feels uncreative.

Like, god I don't wanna mess this little story chain up. It makes my heart ugly and it's beautiful and I so mean that. It ticks in such a different way and there's a frightening literalism to this lol. There is No Spring for February in my heart, not for a long long time.

could I try my hand at writing some of those 36 hours?

I would love to see that!

a sex scene (which I'm not sure I've ever seen you do?)

No, you're right, sex tends to happen off-camera in my stuff. I tend to dwell on everyone being fucked up about it, rather than it happening :)

See now I just spend 2 months writing anything else except the part 2 that would thematically rely upon it's inclusion lol.

Will get to fiddling with my notes and dialogue after dinner, see what I can draft up <3

oke doke, i really bloody apologise this has taken so long. i'm gonna go ahead and do like my mobile-based typo check and wanted to ask for any possible feedback?

like, it feels like the hardest thing i've ever written lol and i'm not sure i've got a good grasp on it. it's very long and i think super messy honestly. and like, i really want to make sure it's a transformative thing, plus while i have an epilogue idea i'll link, i did imagine it as an insert chapter strictly and don't want it to cap the characters off, which would mean wanting to make sure it doesn't like derail or just miss what they're doing.

but yeah,

Thirty-Six

Leap Year

Holy shit, you do not disappoint.

On the one hand, I have the impulse to say "10/10 no notes, hit post" and on the other that would be a disservice; the feverish, visceral quality of your prose is something I'd dearly love to be able to pull off myself. I'd read it all day. I've read this three times, and I'll read it again tomorrow, come back to it fresh and let it sink in all over again.

10/10, hit post, notes: fuck yes, it's a privilege to be associated with this.

Ohh, thank you :eggbug-heart-sob:

I've just finished doing my last edits and typo fixes. Ill post Thirty Six now. I would want to ask, when you can figure it out, if you'd like to write more of them. Bc certainly I'd love that. Just to whether or not I save the epilogue (it's designed to float, and the middle section can be changed easily, I already did lol).

And yeh, really really thank you. To read something a bunch of times over too, which I do for a bunch of your stuff. Means a lot <3

And hopefully now I'll be able to write something now lol.

was letting myself think and the one other idea i had was in case it's handy:

  • February telling Zif to stop, not asking or begging, telling. It's the anniversary of the funeral, and she just can't handle it today.

otherwise it was like the sniper/wound one which i upcycled into the epilogue <3

Oh, and also if I should call it February Brings the Rain - Ch. 04 or keep it Thirty-Six. Your preference, I like em both, latter probably works best on your masterpost and mine. Depends on what you'd like to do.

P.s, don't really have anywhere to put it but "No Spring for February" I love too.