Some self identity / medical issue talk, some personal thoughts as of late;
I've been feeling a little weird recently with Krista, more so due to body image and medical issues.
Idk if some can relate to this way of thinking with how they portray themselves through their sona kinda more realistic in terms of how they are proportioned to ones self in some ways, but I feel negative and weird now looking at her as someone chubby and supposed to be sexy to make me feel good about myself when I just do not anymore due to feeling like it's at a crossroads with my health.
Not sure if body dysphoria specifically with weight in this way is relatable in the sense of does it feel like I'm glorifying myself in being unhealthy? And no, this isn't to make anyone else feel uncomfortable with themselves nor is it me denouncing others portrayal of themselves, more so just is my own view of this for myself healthy? Idk man.
It's been making me feel weird about myself, knowing I have some creeping issues. It makes me sad too, because I love expressing myself through Krista but now it feels like something I'm just negatively putting on myself to feel comfortable despite issues that are affecting me in my health. I feel like my confidence has hit a big low again in my self image and idk what to feel about it or do about it. I just don't really think I deserve to feel sexy or feel good about myself when I'm dealing with shit inside. It just sucks man.
