Stratica

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Freelance artist! Draws for a living-
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Some self identity / medical issue talk, some personal thoughts as of late;


I've been feeling a little weird recently with Krista, more so due to body image and medical issues.

Idk if some can relate to this way of thinking with how they portray themselves through their sona kinda more realistic in terms of how they are proportioned to ones self in some ways, but I feel negative and weird now looking at her as someone chubby and supposed to be sexy to make me feel good about myself when I just do not anymore due to feeling like it's at a crossroads with my health.

Not sure if body dysphoria specifically with weight in this way is relatable in the sense of does it feel like I'm glorifying myself in being unhealthy? And no, this isn't to make anyone else feel uncomfortable with themselves nor is it me denouncing others portrayal of themselves, more so just is my own view of this for myself healthy? Idk man.

It's been making me feel weird about myself, knowing I have some creeping issues. It makes me sad too, because I love expressing myself through Krista but now it feels like something I'm just negatively putting on myself to feel comfortable despite issues that are affecting me in my health. I feel like my confidence has hit a big low again in my self image and idk what to feel about it or do about it. I just don't really think I deserve to feel sexy or feel good about myself when I'm dealing with shit inside. It just sucks man.


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in reply to @Stratica's post:

I think it's always important to remember that self-acceptance doesn't necessarily mean not wanting to change anything about yourself: but treating yourself with kindness and respect, appreciating every step in your journey.
It seems like Krista has been a way for you to harness that self-acceptance; so if you end up deciding to change anything about your own body for any reason you don't have to leave her behind: she can change and evolve with you :)

Either way, I'm sorry you're dealing with these heavy feelings and medical problems, and I really hope you can find some comfort and serenity soon

This comment I think is one of the most best things I've seen in a while to help me feel better about myself... Gosh thanks for this this one means alot.

I might be dumb in asking an obvious question but does this mean I shouldn't feel ashamed in wanting to draw her as she is or changing her a bit to fit what I want for myself? I just wanted some assistance on that, to clarify. Sorry haha.

I meant it more as "changing her design bit by bit to explore possible irl changes"; sonas can be such a handy way to find stuff out about yourself and who you want to be. Of course she doesn't need to change if, for instance, she's important to you as a symbol of who you were when you created her!
Whatever path you choose, I hope Krista can be a companion in your life journey <3

I've had similar feelings about myself and my sona, and ultimately I wouldn't say it's glorifying yourself in being unhealthy

I don't believe there should be any shame in drawing your sona as a reflection of your body- medical issues don't erase the beauty in a person's shape, after all

However it's also the perfect place to explore other options- there shouldn't be any shame in drawing your sona differently either, as a way of seeing what feels right, what might be a realistic goal, etc

My path to self-acceptance has been approaching it from both ends- as in, it's okay both to desire changes, and to appreciate yourself how you are

I've drawn my sona a bunch of different ways, as exploration of the possibilities of my own body, and ultimately it's helped me come to both conclusions; that I love my body as it is now, AND that I could safely lose a couple of inches on the waist

I don't know if that helps but hopefully it provides some insight

You absolutely always deserve to feel good about yourself, and if shits getting you down you've just gotta feel extra good out of spite,
our own opinions about our bodies and what makes us feel attractive are always constantly shifting as time and external factors change, you don't need to worry about assigning a moral value to presenting a certain character a certain way if you're not feeling it, just do you and if anyone has anything to say about it they can come talk to me 😤