😵‍💫 (Leslie//Lucas) 🚬

But fr tho this feels so nice, now I just need someone with a leash

(Also I haven’t shaved in so long it’s so badd ://///)

Need a woman to choke me with a collar til I can’t speak 🥰

I use to have a collar that I’d wear but idk where it went.

I find all the little accoutrements for pet play so fun. I’d like to get more stuff, I’d particularly like a muzzle or some sort of gag, as well as a hood or mask. It all seems very comforting, being gaged and having my face hidden for sex? I have a petrifying fear of intimacy and want those buffers between myself and a partner.

A lot of my fetishes developed because I don’t think I’m loveable as person or viable as a romantic partner, i just want to be a pet or an object to be used, to be cared for not as you would love a person but as you would maintain a pet or an expensive toy. I’m just so pathetic, I want everyone to know, to understand, that I’m just a dog, a stupid little faggot mutt. What’s really stupid is that this dynamic of being someone’s pet requires MORE LOVE than just having a normal relationship. Isn’t that fucked up? To be treated like shit I have to find someone accepting of wanting to be treated like shit?

Is there a grinder for people looking for this sort of dynamic? I would feel bad trying to bring this into a relationship where we didn’t both get into for this type of shit, like It would be sooo embarrassing I’d probably just die right there. I have no clue how to actually meet people plus as previously mentioned im kinda just pathetic so Idk?

I wish those “pet obedience school” things from the fetish stuff was real, I’d sign up in a heart beat. If I could just be completely reprogrammed into a perfect faggot slave and then sold it would all be so much easier! No looking for doms or awkward dates, just a few days of psychological torture and then a lifetime of blissful subservience…

Need a woman to choke me with a collar til I can’t speak 🥰