i dont know what to say about the end. im not ready, but i'll be fine. i made a lot of new friends here, and im certain we'll keep in touch even after we scatter to wherever it is we're all going. im happy i got to be a part of this wonderful lil space on the net.
I'm not leaving til i cant be here anymore, but i just wanted to say something before its too late. i dunno what that something is but here's the pinned post
im gonna get rambly, so strap in
I guess
i joined a couple years ago because i heard about this neat new website that was kind of like old tumblr. this was i think around when twitter was first shitting its pants and everyone was looking for anywhere else to be. I signed up for an account and a bit later i got to actually start using the site. i think it took me a little bit to warm up to it but i got the hang of it and it just felt like everything clicked into place for me. I think it was about the time people started doing goofy css crimes that i started to really pay attention. people were making MAGIC here, something that felt both new and old at the same time, like they dipped their hands into the past and pulled forward some old web weirdness into a modern era. I couldn't and still don't really understand it, but it felt powerful and exciting. I wanted to be a part of this.
The thing I think i usually think of tho is just how organically it felt like i sank in here. It felt like i fit in and felt safe and comfortable. It didnt feel like i had hundreds of eyes observing my every movement on the web. Just a few friends who could see the me i wanted to be seen as. I dont say that like i have things to hide, but , it felt like for the first time in forever i could breathe freely without being judged. I've gone through some shit that has made me value my personal privacy dearly. I worry all the time that someone will see something i liked and attack me for it. but here it didn't matter, i could just be me, and people were excited about that.
i dont know if something like this will exist again, certainly not soon, but hopefully within my lifetime. i think it will. i think enough people have seen what can be and are working very very hard to carry that torch forward. but even if this is the only moment we got to enjoy this spark of warmth, im happy that i got to be here to share it with all of you. I'm happy we got to be here together. I'm happy I have these memories. I'm happy that i've changed and been changed because of you.
Thank you people of cohost
thank you cohost
thank you eggbug
thank you
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