Trans Pat (Possum/Rat) Girl that loves tabletop games and making things with my hands. I ran out of spoons like, 3 years ago and haven't gotten any back since. Learning how to properly girl, please be patient. I sometime post 18+ content.
Plural, but still She/Her pronouns please.
Hana, Aibou, Rose, Loop
∍⧽⧼∊
My Cashapp is cash.app/$TarotCard2

You can find me on PokefarmQ at this link!

https://pfq.link/TarotCard2

Creator of Cohost Radio! Tune in at the tag!


Tumblr(don’t post much)
www.tumblr.com/tarotcard2
warframe username (Friend me!)
TarotCard2#320
Neocities website( this links to the site profile.
neocities.org/site/tarotcard2

pastellexists
@pastellexists

one thing that really bothers me about the way catholics[1] act is that they decide seemingly arbitrarily when something is God's work and when it is yours.

the limits of free will and God's creative authority are very blurry. if you become a doctor, that is a calling from God. if you get a scary diagnosis, that is part of God's plan for you. if you are born with a disability, that's the way God made you.

but there are some things that are, in a way that is opaque to me, not part of God's plan. case in point, if i'm transgender, that's not the way God made me. it's not part of God's plan. that's all me.

what is the difference? i say that the way the distinction is made is opaque to me, because i would really really like for there to be some theological explanation for this. i don't want it to just be bigotry. i want them to have a reason. but it doesn't make sense for me. why are some parts of self preordained from a higher power, and some are not? it can't be the way you are born, because people generally don't have cancer when they're born. it develops later in life, and that gets to be part of God's plan. but a trans identity can't be.

i don't know exactly where i'm going with this. i'm a pantheist, the beliefs of catholicism are only really important to me because of my proximity to it. i was raised catholic, most of my immediate family still is very catholic. i just don't get it.

[1]: i say all of this from the perspective of having been raised catholic. protestants may do the same thing, i don't know.

You must log in to comment.

in reply to @pastellexists's post:

As I understand, the things that aren't part of god's plan are generally some sort of temptation from Satan we are supposed to resist. Arbitrary? Yes.

Luckily I didn't have that kinda convo with my parents. I think they don't want to strain our relationship any more than it already is...

one of my housemates claims that one of the cruelest things you can ever tell someone is "everything happens for a(n intentional) reason." whether that reason is god or something else, i think i agree with her.

as far as i can tell, there is no good answer to any of this, and attempting to assign purpose, good or bad, to the myriad possibilities a life can go will always end up being really creepy and patronizing. saying "you're disabled because god wanted you to be, and that is an act of love" might sound better than "your great grandpa sinned really really hard once and you are being punished for it" but it brings up the same problem: why has this life been made harder over something out of their control? do they only exist to teach others? has god made this life into disability porn for his followers? and if the answer is yes, do those followers even learn the lessons they're supposed to?

also, why should anyone's life be up to god's approval or disapproval? why should i feel better about all the shit i get for being trans, for being mentally disabled, for being an atheist, for being poor, etc etc etc because this life was chosen for me by some jerk using my suffering to make a point? being turned into some kind of cautionary tale or test of faith does not make me feel better about the situation i'm in, especially when the situation i'm in is caused by how others treat me!

God's will is decided by someone based off of how good something feels to their superego, which is all arbitrary lizard-brained shit—it's god's will when it feels good, and free will when it feels bad.