Whether good or bad, you'll never truly know what it's like to perceive yourself through someone else's eyes so why not focus on being the best version of yourself that you like
Also maybe watch some professional wrestling

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Whether good or bad, you'll never truly know what it's like to perceive yourself through someone else's eyes so why not focus on being the best version of yourself that you like
Also maybe watch some professional wrestling