it's weird to know that your brain will always be haunted by a profound sadness because it doesn't make chemicals the right way
that a personal darkness will always cloud your experiences and relationships
and you have to work everyday to give yourself some semblance of solace
and it feels weird to feel proud to have regular emotions in a normal way, but your brain isn't the same as others and your bandwidth and needs and wants are different
so be proud that you're still here.
