boy i wish i knew why i get so melancholy and sad as i get tired. i hate it so much. i want it to shut up and go away because i'm tired of feeling this way, in voice calls especially.
i'm hurting my friends this way and it's not fair.
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if people don't love you, they still like you, dude.
and people who purport to like you, much less the ones who love you, don't talk about you behind your back.
that's not something good people do. that's something a shitty parent might do, though, to get you to be on and stay on her side.