not particularly sure what's gotten into me today but I was just playing some BMS charts in beatoraja and, to quote myself: "[it was] like [i was] running on 15 gallons of adrenaline"
I kept hitting way earlier than I should and ended up increasing my scroll speed from 300 GN (which itself was down from 290 because I kept hitting slow before) down to 285 GN just to try and stay mostly on time, and generally felt like my reading capabilites had shot up dramatically but my actual execution felt really unstable (hitting fast but not always on the right key, substantially more accidental doubletaps, etc.). also i felt like I was gonna die like the entire time. that part was less nice.
i guess something, somewhere in my brain just tripped the switch that's activated my survival instincts and somehow I funneled that into Clicking Buttons Real Fast? it didn't really seem to expand my limits for what i can deal with by that much, though. just seemed like I can Read Faster but a lot of stuff that I was having trouble with, I still couldn't do lol. on some charts I was familiar with I did get a number of PBs and a decent amount of almost-full-combos though so that's neat, I guess.
anyway i'm still feeling the adrenaline kick, which I could either channel into continuing to grind Tetris Effect Master Mode like i've been doing a lot lately, oooor i should find some way to relax because I do not particularly enjoy feeling this level of internal fear lmao
(though it'll be fun when I return to BMS on another day, and then have to deal with the consequences of my heavily increased scroll speed which I probably won't be able to keep up with if I'm in a more conventional temperament, ha).