ill be honest 2022 was not the best year for me so i don't think i will do any kind of long reflective post since frankly uh, yeah, not sure if anything that happened this year is really the kind of thing that I want to think about going into 2023?
not really entirely sure what I want to do next year, either, but I think both 2021 and 2022 felt pretty stagnant or arguably just felt like they were getting worse over time because I wasn't really doing anything to address any fundamental issues in my life, and maybe I should change that for this year because, idk, you'd think after a certain amount times telling yourself that something has to change, you'd actually bother. y'know. doing that? instead of continuing to just do nothing about everything. but, i can't really blame myself sometimes tbh since it's difficult to change from established norms, that's something i've never been particularly good at so needing to do that is uh, an experience to say the least
but whatever. outside of that, over the past couple days I've actually kind of sorta been getting in the mood to return to playing Distance again, which would probably be good since that's kind of been my Thing. i kind of enjoy other games more than distance now, but I'm still largely Tiyenti, the Distance Player in practice, so. yeah. it's also probably just a matter of like, i still like the game and wanna do more stuff for it. doing some more marathon runs would be neat. ultimately, i think distance is always going to be my specific niche, so i'm probably always going to have to gravitate around it to an extent since it's my best medium for doing some of the things i want to do lol
i'm still not going to take the game super seriously anymore but if I could stand playing it enough to stream it again, that would be nice. the main issue I have with that game is that I just don't really enjoy playing it by itself anymore, so I tend to only pick it back up when I think about streaming it again. but then i remember that getting back into streaming requires me to actually stream, and then my motivation goes 📉 so I kind of need to address whatever's making streaming (and, frankly, most anything that requires putting myself out there socially) mentally impossible first. which, i think i know why that is and i have also been feeling like I need to actually do something about that now, but... eh. i know how unreliable i am, so who knows at this point
none of this is like, formal resolutions or goals or anything but yeah. don't really have anything else to comment, that's just the obligatory 2022 reflection post. happy new year I suppose. also I said at the top i wasn't going to do a long reflective post but then i did one anyway, though, i guess technically most of this was thinking forward not backward so maybe i technically didn't lie. idk. you be the judge of that. alright that's it i'm off, peace