personal neurodivergence dread curse: knowing "i want to talk to people i want to make friends i want to have fun" and also knowing it usually is fun, but also "talking to people can active wear me out and often does, to the point where i will sometimes need to rest because of it" AND "i tend to lean nonverbal when i don't have to force myself to talk and i have yet to find a good method of interacting with other people online that doesn't require talking, and for some reason gaming does not count because my brain seems to treat it as similarly tiring" (that last point may arguably be partially an introversion thing too but i often suspect it seems to be a neurodivergence thing in my case i just don't know how to pin it down)
basically: why haven't we invented digital cuddling yet???
