Phoe

hey does anyone know god's email address? i have some issues? it's really uncool to attack me with my traumas for 6+ hours and then just as i'm finally getting it managed enough to go to bed (like. several hours late) throw a charley horse at me? i want to file a complaint.

weh i need to pick up drawing pen again... i can feel The Need creeping up on me despite my "weh so much effort"-ness and if i keep saying "no, later" my physical and metaphysical form as an artist will literally dematerialize in explosive fashion as this is simply the way artists must be, we can never truly put down the pen for we have glimpsed beyond the veil, into the dark corners of the universe where only the eldritch and wrong reside, and the only way to put the horrors at bay is to continue the work we have started, ever onward, never stopping, lest it consume us and fashion us as its own...

also i just haven't tried drawing since i got my new desk and it should be so much less awful now bc i can actually sit in front of my tablet without like, having to constantly maintain criss-crossed legs. also i've been seeing artstyles i like and i want to figure out how they work and also make more cute things :) all my work (drawn and otherwise) has been ttrpg-related that i can't share because it would be spoilers for my players who do follow me lol

need friends to kiss me and cuddle and say nice things to me to combat The Malaise™

bweeeeehhhh i have stuff i need to do (add references for my LANCER game, such as the rules for environmental effects and stuff) but also i wanna nap but i know if i nap i'll sleep a lot and i also still need to make dinner and stuff but also i don't wanna have to go make food yet... evil curseee