about a month or so ago. i was very nervous on the lead up, though i was able to get my mom to stay with me before i was sent off to surgery, and that was nice. bowel cleansing was less traumatic this time as well.
i was/am shocked at how relieved i felt after i woke up. it's hard to hold onto that feeling tightly, but at the moment i was nearly in tears about how wonderful it felt to finally be done with this, to only have recovery to deal with, that that thing was finally gone. I didn't think I cared that much, that I had to focus on the upsides rather than any sort of dysphoria that i was resolving, but i guess not.
the hospital was nice. i only got to stay a few days but the nurses were very kind and i had a constant stream of visitors who took care of me. The food sucked overall with one exception. i hate catheters. my bf drove my mom and me to our airbnb and that was nice, it was like a cool hide out and then we had cuban food. recovery was boring at the start especially with tubes coming out of me. then a little later we went to the post op and i had the tubes taken out and that week was pretty hard for recovery, i was so swollen and going to the bathroom was so hard. i popped my stitches and had a minor freakout but it was apparently pretty minor and normal.
I came back home last week. my brother and bff/roommate are here to take care of me/my dad while i recover, at least my brother for another week. they fell for each other while i was here lol, it's cute but both of them are moving pretty fast but im not their mom so like whatever. they've known each other for a while so it's not the craziest thing, my roommate makes a lot of sense for my brother's taste and i think it'd be a pretty normal match. im feeling a lot better. time is already eroding my memory of that relief i felt post-surgery. i just have a vagina now and that's great. i am hoping this little post will be something i can look back on and remember a little bit how i felt before a time in my life where having a vagina was just normal for me.
it's frustrating, im a very sexual person who masturbates pretty regularly and i don't feel like i can safely masturbate right now which is a bummer. im sure with swelling going down it'll be better. im feeling better now. im tired of being unable to sit and i wanna start moving forward with getting back in education but for now i know i need to just chill out.
all in all pretty good, would recommend getting a vagina if you want one
