while thinking on the subject, i had a weird thought last night that i don't believe anyone has ever gotten a crush on me naturally. In the sense that: all my experience with any kind of romance comes from places purpose-built for it, and with my wobbly mental state as of late sleepytime me was apparently thinking nobody could ever have been into me without that preexisting encouragement.

Obviously, I have no way of knowing if that's true. Part of me believes it, I think, but not a wise part of me. It's probably possible somebody could've developed a crush on me just in the wild? Probably? I have no way of knowing