There was that chost going around a day ago about reaching out to people you want to be friends with and to not worry about being annoying and I genuinely think a lot of my life has been marked by the fact that I almost never feel good to do that because a part of me just internalised the idea that I was a weirdo whose company was unwanted so hard I to this to day struggle to overcome that feeling

Which is also to say I think a lot of y'all are cool and I'd love to actually talk to some of you someday