I know I am difficult to deal with, but it sometimes feels like my family, and some of my friends, push most of the burden of initiating interaction onto me.
Why do I always have to be the one to reach out? The one to plan? The one to suggest?
I don't have the spare energy for this stuff, which means a lot of things don't happen, or get very delayed.
Sure, maybe I'll be in bad shape, and have to say no, or say some other time. I understand that getting negative answers isn't comfortable, but you can't simply wait for me to be the one to bring things up.
On top of bipolar disorder, and physical disability, I am also introverted, have low energy levels, and a poor memory. Trying to push the burden of initiation onto me just doesn't work.
Ask me things. Don't wait for me to ask.
I Am A Delight
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Old queer trans woman from Norway. Mainly post in English. I write stuff sometimes. Expect bad jokes. Girls and cats are nice.
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in reply to @Varewulf's post:
relate to this a lot, too. idk if people are afraid of me or what, but i feel like i make all the attempts to stay connected to friends and whenever i get bogged down by hallucinations/anxiety/mood swings/etc. those connections evaporate when i need them most. just can't help but feel that people don't really care when they never make the effort to reach out themselves. i hope you can find friends who take initiative to spend time with you 🖤💙