At heart, I'm a hedonist and I'm going to come out here swinging saying I don't like numbers. For the longest time I've used twitter, I've used it with the demetricator extension that removes numbers and it brought me bliss. If you want pleasure, I suggest focusing on everyday leisure and to eat slow.
Numbers are an illusion, as creators we gauge our success in life by them, with the idea that with more numbers we won't have to work as hard, we'll earn more from commissions, commissions themselves will be plentiful. We'll have escaped the grind and believe earnestly that people who tell you not to chase numbers are privileged enough to not worry about numbers. With sufficient numbers, we think, life will be easy. Whether we believe ourselves a reflection of a numbers, or not and think we've yet to earn our just deserts, they skewer our self of self. We can just as easily become more egoistical and become a parody of celebrity, or crash into believing we'll die in obscurity and be unmourned.
My advice is not to chase what the numbers tell you; but to examine yourself and live more authentically. For every 'high' we experience, there will be the come down but you can avoid this fallow by thinking hard about what you really want, and more often than not, it's not going to be a faceless set of digits but making your friends happy and taking care of yourself. There will be other ambitions like finishing a degree, or starting a family, ultimately it will come back to your real connections to others you know or to yourself. I can't stress this enough to drop the talk about personal branding, building a platform, and winning over audiences, and instead go develop a self-care regime. Talk a long bath, skip rocks across the beach's waves, buy yourself flowers. Do things that kindle that spark of enjoyment away from what's online.
Then when you come back, you'll realize that chasing the numbers was nothing more than trying to win it big by buying lottery tickets. I will never be a famous artist, but that has never stopped me trying to do something I love, and with the pressure off me of trying to become a massive success in the shortest amount of time, I suddenly have all the time I need to enjoy myself and do all the studies and sketches; the literal ground work of cementing my skills as an artist. If I was doing what was popular, I'd be drawing every fictional character from popular media, instead of sitting by a tree and drawing the moss on trees in oil pastels. Only one of these will ever make me happy, and the other just makes me look desperate for others approval if that would become the extent of my portfolio.
Its the secret of how some people can work under pressure. You just calmly get through it one brush stroke at a time, while everyone else is caught up in fantasies of granduer or failure on their latest piece. You'll know when you've succeeded, because you'll have worked to the end on your own terms.
I hope you have every bit of success with regards to that.