Trying my best to remain calm and composed, but I have this malaise that just grows and eats away inside of me. I just want to yell, and do something that makes today feel like it was well-lived but i know nothing will ever scratch at that void. I understand its inevitable that the sun will set, and it'll rise the next day but I'm trapped in this emotional carousel and I want to jump off.
This is one of the many reasons I hate winter, because now I get these anxiety attacks earlier and earlier in the day.