I'm trying to be as emotionally solid as I can be, but a friend decided to pit me and another together in a popularity contest that I had to rig in favour of another friend because she's notorious among every furry social group she's involved in for being emotionally unstable and prone to spiralling. You can lead her to water, but she'll throw her hands up and declare it impossible, and I did not want to deal with the fall-out because i'm already doing what I can to keep her stable and pleasant to be around.
So I lost in a land slide and she was happy enough to explain why the poll was a ridiculous fucking move and was going to go down bad no matter who won. I can't tell her I went around everyone asking them to vote for her because I don't want to think about what she'd do, if she even suspects such a thing.
I didn't think it'd affect me, given I do have a slight humiliation kink but god, did it hurt especially after just being repeatedly made to feel weaker and inferior to other people.