Most people who follow me online have no clue what beatmania IIDX is or how important it is to me, but an old video of mine once went slightly viral in japan where I barely failed Scorpion Fire by what's probably a single note. I like that video a lot since it embodies such a strong feeling everyone who plays beatmania understands, failing at 78% and coming so close on a difficult song. It's painful, but also motivating.
The song kinda became a demon of mine until I could finally normal clear it, but the next step of hard clearing it was something I wouldn't be able to consider for a while. Even when I was good enough to do it and was hard clearing "harder" songs, this one was just a personal demon and I couldn't seem to get it. Then again, I wouldn't spend too much time on it anyway since I didn't wanna get frustrated and figured I'd get it someday as I improved.
I haven't been able to play regularly for one reason or another for multiple years now, and being out of practice has weighed heavy on my heart. I love playing this game, and feeling like "you've lost it" before you were ready to slow down isn't a great feeling. I've finally been able to really buckle down and play regularly and figured it'd take me about 1-2 months to rebuild old forearm muscle and get back to where I was, but after a little under two weeks I somehow did this. I hard cleared scorpion fire. I'd only been trying it to show the song to a friend when suddenly I was within striking distance of hard clearing, and just decided to go for it.
Gonna be honest. It feels pretty damn good.
