Every time I have these long (to me, an hour) writing sessions of this unsettling horror story... or, my short stories in general...? I feel so strangely serene when the session is done. Like this brief feeling that all is well, that I have done what needed to be done, that I am reclaiming, somehow, a core part of myself - the self conception I had of myself as a teenager where there was nothing I wanted to be more than a writer of fiction, even as I was a terrible reader of fiction. I think I'll keep pursuing this high.