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This page is an attempt at letting overshadowed parts of myself surface, helping them blossom by talking about them.



I thought I would only be away for a little over a week at most, but fear and procrastination got the best of me, and now it's been a month since my last post. I'm writing this hoping that it would be easier to actually start posting if I get rid of the pressure of my first post after a long period of inactivity, Though I might disappear again right after doing so and then it would be even more difficult to come back because I would feel awkward writing a "I'm back" type of post when I already did so before and failed to follow through.

I'm overthinking this way too much. The reason people post on social media initially is because it's supposed to be fun, right? Calculating, obsessing and worrying over how I want others to see me online isn't.
I'll get better at doing all of this, in fact I'm already kinda improving: I looked into Markdown and started learning HTML and CSS today. I've barely scratched the surface and everything is very new to me. It's the first time since forever that I manage to sum up the courage to take the first step into unknown territory, and looking into the vastness and complexity of it all doesn't scare me as much it used to (maybe social media wont be as scary too someday), the feeling of vertigo is pretty exciting even! Althougth it still very scary

I'll ramble about all of this in another post some other time. There's lots I want to do and say here now that I'm back. Thank you for welcoming me back.


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in reply to @Windshyme's post:

welcome back. i totally get that uncertainty about what to post and trying to curate an image to project online; i'm trying to leave that behind as well. obviously i don't have a magic bullet to fix it either, but keep in mind there's no correct way to do it. something i've been doing when i think about posting something and hesitate is to rember that that instinct to hide away has led me to where i'm currently trying to get away from. this has helped me a little bit, at least. good luck going forward!

I didn't respond sooner because... I was thinking about how to too much again. It's conforting sharing this with someone else. I also like the way you look at it, its reassuring in a way, I think. Thanks!
Good luck going forward to you too! :D