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This page is an attempt at letting overshadowed parts of myself surface, helping them blossom by talking about them.



Windshyme
@Windshyme

I really want to play the rest of Outer Wilds' DLC, but never as fear been so inhibiting in a video game for me before, I'm struggling to overcome it. Even outside of the game, just thinking about it terrifies me.
Fear of the unknown is the one I'm most sensitive to. I can feel it's frozen claws and fangs tear deep into my boiling flesh, I can sense it's chilling chaos spreading throughout my racing mind.
I can hear it's silent screams, I can see it's absence all around me. The more I try to keep it at bay and discern it's shape the more I feel submerge by it, drowning in the palm of it's hand. Fear feeds on itself.


Windshyme
@Windshyme

Despite everything, I've finally manage to finish Outer Wilds' DLC tonight, it was insanely good. It definitely crystalized it's place as one of the best piece of art I've ever been able to experience, OW is a masterpiece from its beginning to it's very end.

There so much I'd like to say about it, i'm a bit overwhelmed. I feel... A bit too much for tonight honestly, I don't think 5am is a good time to try and process it all, sleep first.
Though, here's my first impressions, I want to share them, I don't think I'll be able to sleep if I don't. I'll keep it short for now:
I've learn so much from OW, I still have a lot to learn from it. I struggle to realize yet to which amplitude this game has/is fondamentally changed/ind my perception of life, the end of it and the universe. I'm happy I got to experience something that could make me feel such powerful polar opposite emotions at the same time, never I've I been so terrified and fascinated before in all my life. This was an unique, sometime nerve-wracking, and infinitely beautiful game. I am so grateful. Thanks to everyone that worked on it so so much!

I'm never going to stop thinking about Outer Wilds, ever.


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in reply to @Windshyme's post:

Glad you enjoyed it! I think that spookiness and fear of the unknown is definitely one of the (many) reasons that it's such a great memorable experience. It's probably my #1 game of all time ^^

If you're ever looking for something with similar vibes (less cozy and existential though, perhaps :P), Subnautica really surprised me in a lot of the same ways.

I've struggled a lot with horror in video game and until now I though it simply wasn't for me. I think Outer wilds also changed my perspective when it come to fear. I think (and kinda hope!) I might grow to enjoy it.
At the very least, my threshold for what I'm able to handle as definitely expended, the anticipation in OW really was the worst part for me :,)
I've actually played Subnautica a few years ago but I ended up being too scared and never finishing it. Though now that I had to face my fears like never before with Outer Wilds, maybe Subnautica wouldn't be so dreadful anymore? I'll have to give it another shot someday. Even though I've spoiled the story for myself by watching let's play back when I had given up on fining it, it might still be worth to experience it first-hand? Thank you for the recommendation!