I hate everything about tonight. I wish I could let go.
Should a burn myself trying a bit more hoping something good will come out of it? I don't want to give up with this awful feeling stuck in my throat. Can I even feel satisfied at this point? What is it that I'm not getting? What is it that I'm missing? Maybe I've been doing this wrong all this time. Maybe this is hopeless.
Why am I like this? Why can't I think or act like everyone else? Why I am always tired?
Edit: I'm doing a bit better. Enough to stop for tonight without feeling awful at least.
