Cool… my school hasn’t processed my “refund” yet even though my disbursement happened already… I start classes on Monday and don’t have any money for the materials I need :-)

I’m Ruby。 I’m roughly 20 apples tall
ルビーです。背がりんごを20つぐらいです。
I drew my profile pic and banner. The gameplay in the banner is from dragon quest 1 for game boy that I recorded myself.
Cool… my school hasn’t processed my “refund” yet even though my disbursement happened already… I start classes on Monday and don’t have any money for the materials I need :-)
Remember to repeat the daily mantra at least 10 times while looking in the mirror today
“I’m helpless, I’m scared”
Context
Indigo and I do this bit where we either say “I need help!” Or “I’m scared” in a pathetic voice while groaning and we did that at my mom’s house today and my mom was like “why are you scared and need help?” And I was like “oh we’re always scared” and indigo said “and we always need some sort of help” so my mom sarcastically said “that’s a great affirmation” so I started chanting “I’m helpless, I’m scared” and indigo joined in. My mom looked so disappointed
Remember to repeat the daily mantra at least 10 times while looking in the mirror today
“I’m helpless, I’m scared”
After talking extensively with my wife and family, I am going to study abroad for a year in Japan as early as late next year. How am I going to do this? Good question! I’m going to be researching scholarships and opportunities for me to do this over the next few weeks so that I can develop a game plan. I’ve been mulling over this for about a year now after my Japanese professor in 101 pulled me aside to convince me to go spend a year studying in Japan because he said he can tell I’m serious about the language. I’m convinced now. I’m going to fly to another country and live there for a year and hopefully I don’t throw up or shit my pants in the process.