These are they:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6h66VXVhOo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfeIp3372SM
The doing took an unreasonable amount of personal effort, and especially for the latter, a weighty emotional toll. I really did pour my heart into it, over and again, because I couldn't not, because despite whatever else the projects were or weren't: they were necessary.
I could not not make them, as if compelled by a tynged or geas. I hope this does not make the less of what I did, but it does also mean that whenever a friend of mine tells me they watched them, my first response is "I'm sorry."
I didn't mean to do this to offload the emotional burden from me to you.
But down that same road: I believe that a sorrow shared is divided, and a joy shared is multiplied, and I would love to multiply your joy with mine, and divide your sorrows with mine, and I ain't ever gonna stop until somebody puts a stop to me, which I wish they wouldn't.