zandravandra

turning people into catgirls

~author/streamer/gamedev~ appreciator of colorful wigs


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posts from @zandravandra tagged #ask a zandra

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@relia-robot asked:

Brook! I haven’t seen you in a while. How's it been in the squid maid business? Got any new girlfriends?

Brook brushed away some of the discarded confetti and party streamers, then sat down on the clean part of the bench with a sigh.

The silence was deafening.

It wasn't a true silence, to be clear; her colleagues were busy cleaning up after the Grand Festival, called in from their usual duties to handle this particularly tough job. But the friendly chatter of maids hard at work could hardly compare to the marvelous cacophony of the crowds that had shaken that very ground just a few hours earlier, before the sun rose.

It had been amazing. It had been life-changing. It had been. And now, it wasn't.

And it likely never would again.

Tears drip-dropped onto the bench; slowly at first, then flowing freely.

There would be other places. Other festivals. Other reasons to celebrate, to cheer louder than anyone ever had before. It was just hard to imagine them right now—and that was okay. Some things couldn't be rushed. Some emotions had to be felt all the way through, like every bend of a stream, with the promise of one day reaching the ocean.

Brook wiped the tears from her cheeks. She got up, straightened out her apron, and waved to her colleagues. Her friends. Her loved ones.

She smiled as they approached, hand in hand.

The day was still young, and there was a lot of work to do. But she wasn't alone; she never would be again. She could trust herself. Trust those closest to her. Trust that they'd find their way to brighter days.

Together.

Tears welled up again in her eyes, but there was very little sadness in them. Instead, they were filled with relief; with a profound sense of letting go.

—Fin.



Anonymous User asked:

In these final moments we share here, I just want to thank you (for what might be the dozenth) time, for making things so genuine and earnest, from your heart of hearts.

I dream of making similar things to bring similar joy to perhaps-not-so-similar people, but... I am afraid. There's a lot of things I dream of that I know cannot be real in this world of ours. There's a lot of things from the depths of my heart I fear may upset people, or incur the wrath of being labeled "problematic". Some of those things are also... um, quite... ah, "intimate" and "spicy", as some might say, in very, very strange and unusual ways.

I want to create these things so badly, but I'm so scared of what people might think of me for putting so much of my heart of hearts out on the page. Will people think of me as disgusting, abhorrent? Will people I considered my closest friends turn their backs to me? Will I be comfortable with what I see of myself?

... I ask you, in the final hours we share here... How do you do it? Or how did you do it? Work past that fear, or master it, or ignore it or... whatever happened?

honestly what worked for me might not work for you—I wrote extremely wholesome stories!

back then I lived in fear of being called out or deemed problematic, to the point where I overcorrected immensely. it's why it's been so liberating to let myself write more messy stories lately, ones that tap into emotions and experiences I've been hesitant to write about until now

my advice is the same as it was a couple asks back: write, and find fellow sickos who'll read without judgement. but make sure you stay safe, yeah? it's totally fine to take some time and really find the people you can trust with those parts of yourselves. there's no hurry; your safety comes first, even if it's purely a social one

and if you can't find anyone yet? write, still. you can at least be your own first reader; wait a day or two, let the ideas settle, and then check out what you made. it's important to trust yourself first, and that too is a trust that must be earned.

so write! and most importantly, be kind to yourself. <3



Anonymous User asked:

What are some kinds of stories you hope to tell in the future? (And how might one - presently - stay in touch to perhaps hear them when they're ready?)

I still have a lot of stories I want to tell! But honestly, right now I'm so focused on Her Majesty The Prince (both finishing Act II and writing the upcoming Act III) that I'm not really thinking about that right now. But if you like the things I've written, you can expect more along those lines! ^^

If you want to stay in touch to hear them, the best place is my blog! It's where I'll post all my writing, though my Patreon patrons will get early access to the bigger stuff.

Otherwise, if you only want to know about the books, there's my newsletter! - that one's only gonna contain the major releases, to make sure not to flood your inbox. ^^

Thanks for reading! I really appreciate it. <3