introspective moment: i wonder if my continual frustrations with people being overly nostalgic about the past and frustratingly pessimistic about the future are rooted in how rough my own life and especially my childhood was. right now is the best my life has ever been - looking backwards i only see an awful lot of pain. that's shaped me a lot, i feel. i refuse to allow myself to drown in pessimism because the future's all i have.
